Bear in Hibernation

After a grueling boot camp workout last night and watching the finale to the bachelor ( there is 3 hours I will never get back) I thought to myself that if I am really going to do this challenge the right way then I need to come clean and put all my “ dirty” laundry out there for everyone to know. So here goes!

Deciding to do this challenge after my Saturday night return debacle left me going to bed that night on a very positive note. But that positive feeling didn’t last long when I woke up Sunday morning to one thought and one thought only, that I need to go buy this cardigan that I saw at The Limited a few weeks back but didn’t buy at the time cause I thought I still had plenty of time to start shopping for my spring wardrobe. I thought it could wait, but now it was all I could think of. For those of you who don’t know me very well, when I get obsessed about stuff I will only think about whatever it is I want until I have it in hand. It gets very difficult to function at times. I decided if I was not going to shop for a full 3 months then what is the harm and going to the store and getting this one thing, right? A few minutes later I was at the store and in the dressing room again finding myself surrounded by 20 different items to try on... the entire trip is still a blur.

After trying everything on and carefully putting things in either a “YES” pile or a “NO” pile, which the “NO” pile consisted of only 2 things, I noticed someone talking…well more like debating and after a moment of thinking who the heck is this weirdo, I realized it was ME! I was debating to myself out loud about what to buy and what not to buy. I mean who does this, not only once but twice in the past 24 hours and in a dressing room of all places? Nevertheless I guess I won the debate with myself cause I clearly left there with not only the item I came for but a few more “must haves” that I just couldn’t live without. So 290 dollars later I was headed home and feeling great but feelings are overrated and sooner than later I found myself making excuses for what just took place.

Clearly I know that I shouldn’t have bought anything on Sunday and clearly I should return everything I purchased but that is not going to happen. I had a chat with my good friend Megan the other day and she made a good point of saying I should return everything that I have bought and start this challenge off with a bang. But I don’t always do the right thing or make the best decisions. That’s probably why I have a car loan and a student loan hanging in my closet. Always having a friend who is right all the time can become nauseating, but the only reason that is, cause I know deep down she is right but this is my challenge and I make the rules people. So before you agree and say that’s exactly what I should be doing, don’t because I am the one who came up with the challenge and with that it means I come up with the rules. So whatever shopping I have done up to Feb 28th at 11:59pm I get to keep and that’s that! I know some may not agree and that’s ok. But I have to have something new to get through this time and that was my last “soiree” until June 1st, 2010.

Besides bears have to stock up on food before they go into hibernation, so that’s all I was doing….storing up!